blurb by bronwyn

Hi there all.

I just thought I'd jot down some of my ideas about my first days of motherhood—especially when it became “for real”—we're not just on holiday anymore—Duncan had gone back to work and my Mum had gone back to Hamilton. I seemed to hit a “growth spurt” day on day 1 by myself as Eden stepped out of his mostly 4 hour routine and wanted constant attention and feeding eek. Day 2 = mixed and day 3 = a very settled day.

The funny thing—which I had been wondering about—was the feeling of “free time” when Eden has a day when he sleeps more routinely. The so called free time that comes in short patches gets quickly filled with the big 3: housework, shopping and emailing. These activities just feel like sort of daily maintenance and I discover I actually am quite goal oriented! I need something meaningful in the day to work towards—a visit or an errand. I had been wondering what it would be like once all the jobs that consumed me to do with shifting house and getting ready for baby came to and end. I am reminded of our friend Adrienne's joy when she just has her baby daughter to look after when her boys have gone to Grandma's for a few days—she feels blissfully on holiday! I feel a sudden need to be doing more stuff that I won't be able to do if and when we have more than one child! Really looking forward to settling into a church/Christian community where I may be able to contribute something. Also keen to have more contact with our wee street community here—we have met some of our neighbours but keen to meet more. Our house is surrounded by 7 other residences, and I hear there are some other Mums and babies nearby.

Here are some ins and outs of my first 3 days—I won't continue regularly in this vein, but it was kind of interesting just to be able to document happenings and then look back on the detail...